My grandmother

My grandmother passed away two days after her birthday this week. It is so wierd to think of this world without my grandparents. They shaped who I am and taught me so much about this world and about God. I laughed when Papa told me not to believe everything that a pastor said. I thought that was funny b/c he was my pastor at the time. He went on to explain that I needed to get into the word and find things out for myself and not always believe what people said but to find out the truth for myself. When I was little Mama told me that one day everyone has to find God for themselves, not thier parents God. That didn't make sense until I was in my senior year of high school and found myself at the altar with papa during the end of a service. He looked so confused at me crying for awhile and finally said Chrissy are you saved. He lead me through a prayer that made God my personal God, not the God my parents told me about. I could tell a million stories, what a mark they made in my life and not just me, they made a billion marks in so many lives. They were true, what you saw is what you got, nothing hiding, no pretense, just people in love with God and loving on you b/c that's what they were meant to do.

Kris and I were talking about how we can let our kids get to know my dad and grandparents without them phyically being here. My grandfather made me a shelf back in 89 and we are hanging it up in Adyson's room. She is also getting the doll bed that he made me. I am going to tell her stories and show her pictures, but most of all I want to show her God's love. It is everywhere, in nature and in people. I want her to see the world like that like they taught me too.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was good. It was a quiet affair at our house with Sue, Al, Allen, Chanda, and Cam.
I want to decorate for Christmas but in the same sense I don't. Right now it seems like a lot of work for taking it down in a month. Sounds crazy for me to say b/c Christmas is my favorite holiday and I love to decorate for it. I think it is because we won't be here and I can't drag all the decorations out of the attic and feel bad Kris has to do all of it by himself. But we will decorate I'm sure. I can't wait to spend Christmas with my family, I haven't been at my grandma's since four years ago before we got married and Kris has never been to my family for Christmas. We are going to spend the night with Caitlyn and Liz, then my mom, and then pop up and see Jenny and Joey. I can't wait!

Bad day at work

Monday and Tuesday were not good days at work. At one point I went and locked myself in the bathroom, cried, and prayed. It was a good five minutes before God calmed me down. Later that day we had the heating guy come and look at our furnace. He said we would be better off getting a new unit instead of putting money into our current one. I told Kris that I was going to go take a shower and wash the day away and then we could have dinner. With all that we put a strict budget on presents, which is hard for me b/c I love to buy gifts for people. We looked at what we have for Adyson and decided the only thing we need right now is a mattress, the other stuff is not important right now, so that's some stress off. God is in control. Wednesday I woke up and said that is was going to be good. I went to school and turned on Christmas music and smiled. It was a good day and my grandmother went to see God that day. What a way to spend Thanksgiving, worshiping at his feet.

12 more weeks

We only have 12 more weeks give or take a few until Adyson is here. It has gone really fast and slow all at the same time. We are not ready for her yet. There is still so much to do. We stripped all her furniture today and hopefully we will paint it tomorrow.
I am starting to show more, it's maternity clothes from here on out. My bigger shirts don't even fit anymore. She is kicking rather hard some days. I was standing at work the other day and she kicked really hard, my co-workers thought it was hilarous. I can't wait to met her and hold her!!!!
I can't believe Thanksgiving is almost here! Al and Sue get here on Monday but have to leave on Thursday. I wish they could stay longer. We will probably get up at the crack of dawn the day after Thanksgiving with Marsha and Jer like we have done the last three years to get all the great bargains and laugh at how people act. It is kind of fun and I love to get deals.