Sunday, August 31, 2008

B-day coming







I turned 30 today. Kris has had fun with that today b/c he is 29 today (yes we have the same b-day). He and Addy made me breakfast in bed and then said there was not enough wax to safely light my candles (ha ha). Kris has this week off. He only had to take two days off since Monday is a holiday and his birthday on Wednesday is considered a paid holiday.



We visited Kris' sister Saturday and Sunday. She made our b-day cakes, German Chocolate (K) and yellow with chocolate icing (mine). Addy decided that she wanted to potty train and sat on the potty. She tried but nothing has happened but she is excited about sitting, flushing, and washing hands. It is all we do now :-)

Friday Addy, Marsha and I went to Stuckey Farms to pick apples and corn. Addy loved it. We have more groceries right now then we have ever had. Kris's aunt took us shopping and bought us everything under the sun.

Rufus is acting better. My grandma has to have a sleeping test next week to see how her lungs are and then they are setting the date for surgery for her heart.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Smiling

I was talking to a friend this week and she was saying how people don't know her, only the ones she trusts. She is this beautiful woman that always has a smile on her face, you would never know or imagine what she has come thru, she's amazing.

So brings the question, who are you behind the smile? I am a pretty open person and strive to be the same person at home, work, and church. Yes we have different roles but I want to be the same person. But I think my defintion of being open means if you ask or if the info pertains to the conversation at hand. Not everyone knows my parents are divorced, i have had 2 stepmoms, 1 stepdad, a brother, half sister, stepsister, and at one time 2 stepbrothers or that I held my dad's hand the night he lost his battle with cancer. Sounds strange but I wouldn't change any of it, I like who I am b/c of my life experiences.

Behind my smile is a girl who loves God, who loves to sing worship songs for hours, who loves her family, desires to be the best wife ever to the most deserving husband, and a great mom. Sometimes we forget what we are because we are so busy with life or with smiling.

My old BRSMers will understand this. Life was so easy in the middle of revival, we lived in hope and faith, we met people all the time that God touched and changed, we started everyday at chapel and ended the night with the ushers blinking the lights at us after midnight. I like to look back to see how I have changed and if I like the change or not. Right now I don't like it in certain areas so I'm going to fix it. My desire is to teach my children what I have learned so our morning routine is changing. Can you tell that I have spent the night listening to Mike Motley, Jessie Rogers, and Jason Upton?

Ok enough thinking for tonight, I'm exhausted and going to bed.

Monday, August 25, 2008

The longest blog ever .... really

Ok so we haven't updated in awhile and I have not answered the emails with complaints, sorry.
We went to the doctor and they couldn't tell us the sex of the baby, the baby wouldn't open it's legs and just wiggled the whole time. We are having another ultrasound in September b/c they couldn't see a clear enough image this time of all the organs supposedly b/c my bladder wasn't full enough.

Kris got to go to Michigan this weekend on a unsuspected paintball tournament. The SPPL called and asked why his team was not signed up. They explained that they went to the Chicago tournament this year and did not have the money to go. So he waved their fee and the camping fee and they went. Kris had a great time and they lost two and won one. It always takes them two games to warm up it seems. The big thing was that Greg Hastings was there to start his second paintball video game. So they took all the teams photos and their info and they will be in the game!! It's on X-box and the Wii. So check it out next year when it comes out and you play as Gideon Force and be Kris!

My grandmother Rose was in the hospital last week. She is not doing so well. Three bad valves to the heart, blood clots in her lungs, and clogged veins in her legs, not to mention the extra passage way to her heart that they have been trying to fix for years but other problems keep rising up that are more important. They did a million tests, told her that stress has damaged her heart and to get the stress out (easier said then done) It killed me that I wasn't there with the whole family to support her. My family is great, all four of her kids were there everyday and some of their kids too. I wish they were closer. We were going for a long weekend this coming weekend but it's not going to happen now (sorry guys). My mom hasn't seen Addy since Christmas, it sucks.

Rufus is not doing well either. He is 14 going on 15 and for a chocolate lab that is pretty old. This weekend he was trying to get up and kept falling down. Addy would go over and rub his head and talk (I think she was praying for him, she knows) I doped him full of meds every day since but I don't know what to do really without taking him to the doctor and what are they going to do except charge us 300 like they always do? We are starting daily very small walks around the cul-de-sac to try to keep him up and moving, that's about all the walking he can stand. Is it silly that I love my dog and this upsets me so much? I never thought I could love an animal like I do him, oh how we change over the years.

Well the most stressful thing, I was fired today. Yes, take a deep breath (I had too). Addy has been sick all weekend, sleeping in late, taking 3 -4 hour naps and just laying on top of me. I am pretty sure she has a sinus and ear infection b/c she has pinkeye, which is what happens every time she gets a sinus infection it comes out her eyes (the doctor couldn't see us till tomorrow). So I called in today for work, got my friend to cover my shift, and called the guy in my room so he knew what was going on and wouldn't worry if she was slightly late. Of course Addy didn't sleep in today so we got up and did the mom thing, she also had to scream herself to sleep for a nap b/c she wouldn't sleep and was exhausted, having major meltdowns, so I put her in her bed and she screamed until she fell asleep. Which if you know Addy you know that is not her, she is the easiest child to put to sleep, put her down and walk away (we are so lucky). Anyway I get a message from my boss that I am a no show no call. I call back I explain I get fired. Ok, so me being pregnant and emotional, I cried and was in shock. I have never been fired. Of course my wonderful husband talks me thru it, gets out our budget, revamps it, and starts getting info on unemployment, what would I ever do without him?

So we are dropping my college course and cancelling our cable, Internet, and phones. So if you want to get ahold of us, come over to the house, it's like junior high again :-) We will walk to Kris's parents house (thankfully they live .7 of a mile from us) and use their Internet and Kris will check stuff at work on his breaks. We are still short 400 dollars a month for bills. I tell you this so you can pray specifically for that. The funny thing is that we were at church the other day and during worship a song was playing about trials and tribulation and I was thinking how lucky we are. We haven't anything real major lately. Low and behold all in a week... but it's good, I feel so relaxed and God will take care of us, he always does. I think I was starting to forget that, forgetting all the times I didn't have college tuition and someone paid it, I didn't have a car and someone gave me one for free, or when I said to God if you want me to move to Florida then you have to provide a house and a job and just so I know that it's you I want the house to have sage green walls. It happened just like that too, girl sits beside me at a restaurant and says hey do you know anyone who needs a job and place to live and of course the bedroom had sage green walls. I love when he does things like that.